My photoshop got hijacked!

Can't believe it just vanished into thin air!
My sister's boyfriend just confirmed that the programme isn't in my lappy anymore.

Where has it gone to people?!!

I.can't.believe.this!

I've to let it out.

I'm trying so hard not to lose faith in scrapping. Maybe I've dived into scrapbooking too fast too furious. Maybe I feel inadequate as I've always been an overachiever. Maybe I feel like an oddball not being a scrapper mum with cute kids to scrap about or good cameras to take beautiful pictures (which make all the difference in the scrapping world). Maybe I don't feel comfortable having staff who do not seem to like me even though patronize the store week in week out. Maybe I'm too demanding, not only as a scrapper but as a person on the whole. (I'm a willing party who welcomes feedback so if you seriously have some issues with me, please say it right to my face. I can take anything given that I've a more screwed-up life when I was younger than anyone I've met.) Maybe I'm taking my hobby too seriously. Maybe I am not proactive enough in making small talk and getting people to like me. Maybe I just don't belong to the local scrapping community here. I've been putting up with releasing the pent-up feelings for the longest time. The only one who will never fail me is God and I pray that he can give me the strength to go through the disappointment and to embrace this fallen world with sinners. I also pray that as a sinner, I'll be forgiven and have the generosity to forgive those who are against me. Sorry for ranting. I can't possibly be cheerful 24/7 but I do get over things pretty fast with God's help.

whines

Whine #1: FATS I attribute it to the Genting trip. Goodness! I think I've put on at least 3 kg over the 3 days of gorging on 7 meals a day, approximately. Worst of all, The crazy Roy came up with the "drink water if you lose" games every night. Imagine my poor bloated stomach retiring for the nights without resting!! Arrgh. What a holiday! On the side note, it's pretty fun. Especially for a workaholic like me. I can finally take some time off to rest. Whine #2: EYE INFECTION But my eyes are hurting like crazy. That's why I've been damn moody throughout the trip.. I'm gonna see the doctor tomorrow. Finally after procrastinating for a week. But I don't wanna be slapped with an eye infection though I'm pretty sure it's one. I don't wanna spend a bomb going to the eye specialist And getting my poor eyes to go through tests and tests. After hearing my EVIL future bro-in-law's impersonating the eye specialist's procedure on eye infections, I'm freaking scared of eye specialists! Whines whines whines. I'll be good my eyes. Please don't give me any infection. My photoshoot is on 16th Aug! -.- Whine #3: SCHOOL The freaking term starts again. It never fails to amaze me how I can be annoyed every start of the term over CORS. Really freaking annoying. Seriously, you don't expect a 4th year student still whining over not winning any modules. And for God's sake, I've been whining for the past 3 years. Time flies like mad.. I have not gotten over how CORS made me cry like a baby in year 1.. Arrgh.. this is pure torture. Sorry my dear blog, you're my number one love for being a whining outlet. Your mere existence holds such importance in my life man. Love you!