This boy is beyond hope

When I looked at you and saw how you ruined your own life along with ours, I couldn't bring myself to forgive you. "Lord, forgive my debts as I've forgiven my debtors" I say this everyday and yet I find it so difficult to execute upon you. It's not the first time you got the family into trouble with your debts, I've no idea how to forgive you. I really have no idea.